pieces of me

ok so i forgot my msn blog’s password. this just shows how long i have been in hibertion haha!! and so many things have happened since then but now im so freaking frustrated!!!!!!

ok so i havent been writing in like a year?haha i guess im not a blogging type of person. im just lazy i guess to go online and write these things down when i can just take out my phone and call my personal diary - my bestfriend:D

but now im really frustrated and im not sure if i can express exactly what i feel. i took a loong bus ride today from bishan all the way to marine parade. took like 1 h 10 mins and 30 min waiting time! fudge thats super time waster. but i feel happy today cos i helped out in some special home. we went there to befriend mentally retarded people and taught them some simple dance moves. it was some experience haha and i got to make new friends too!:) like all those other volunteers, like keefe who i still cannot believe is only 18 when he looks like what 23?haha hope he doesnt read this.

anw why am i diverging topic??im still damn frustrated abt sth that happened previously.

qn: how do you noe whether a guy likes you??? as in really how? if he smiles sweetly at you? if everyone says so? how?how? why do guys live in a separate universe anyway?

and how do you noe whether they;re just being polite? arrgh this "men are from mars women are from venus" thing really irks me:(

oh happy bday to all my friends who got bday today!! haha its so ironic so many of you have the same bday. this just shows that scorpio gets along with aquarius hmmm wonder why haha:)

well im still damn frustrated.:( ugh.

hey blog!!

hmm i havent written down here for so long aLready..wonder if anyone’s reading this??well if i havent updated u guys im now a proud VICTORIAN!! yupps haha ive strived and lanede into my dream jc:)

jc lyf is very diffeerent fron sec..but after u have experienced it you’ll ask yourself how u were able to survive all those years without going to jc. why?coz jc is damn fun!!(most of the time anyways)

ok not to mention all the lectures and tutorials we all loveto skip..westill have our beloved PW!!sumthing that even if i cry blood already still it wudnt be done haizz

yup juz updatimg u guys whats going on in my life now..oh yah i got into VJ DANCE SOCIETY!!hahaha

errm well thats it. u can say this entry is very random..

PS JUST MY LUCK is the bomb!!must watch!!il write a review nxt tym..now must mug again midyears in one week!!

okay. so i have just finished my o’levels…hooray!!

honestly im not really that happy. yah i mean i told you all that i would jump n sing when the exams end..but in reality after it did i cannot do it..i just felt shocked

i remember last friday nov 18 when we were taking our chem paper. i thought the paper was okay and i finished with some time to spare. i carefully checked my answers and after that i realized that that was it. that was the last paper that i would do. i looked up to see that 2 minutes was left till the exam ends. i couldn’t help but to think that after 2 minutes it was done. 60 seconds left to tick before it would all end. and in that spare time i just looked around me, the cpe, the invigilators my classmates everyone and i just thought that after this last 2 minutes we wouldnt be seeing each other anymore..there wouldn’t be a chance where we would all be in the same room again.

you could say im a bit dramatic but  hey thats me. after we handed up our papers i felt a sense of relief but most importantly i really felt that i learned a lot from this experience. i remembered all the time i stayed up at night memorizing  tha factors of high birth rate, or when i used up all my foolscap trying to do all those math papers. its really amazing how time flies.

in one week i’ll be going home. i may never see some ppol i stay in the same hostel with, and most of my schoolmates..but one thing im sure: the experience n the memories would really last with me for a long long time.:)

"the only thing that’s constant is change"

JC n ko!!!pano n kya??:)

HOORAY!!!!!!

NEED I SAY MORE??

im all alone

tonight

i tried to call you

but no one answered

i sms u

but u never replied

why? i ask

why? why? why?

when its time to finally shout out n rejoice..

im all alone

Here I am again writing in my blog. First of all, I want to express my deepest sense of gratitude to all my friends especially my batchmates, rheyza and ate Rachel. Thank u guys very much! I luv u guys!!

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It was only three days ago when I celebrated my 17^th birthday. Before the big day arrived, I was feeling kind of apprehensive about it, to be honest. Secretly I expected some kind of celebration from my friends. However I knew this was kind of impossible, since I understand that we are all quite busy now, me with my o-levels and them with going home etc. I really understood our situation and because of that, I was fine with a no-party, no-grand bday. I was used to it anyway in the

Philippines

. I felt a bit sad I’ll admit but at that time my bday was the least of my worries. I have exams coming up.

And so the big day arrived. I secretly glanced at my clock while flipping through my geog book (kiasu haha) until

midnight

came. I felt grateful and happy as I received some sms and phone calls of greetings. We even had a small gathering at the study room since me and my other classmate shared our birthday.

When I woke up, I was feeling a bit excited to go to church with rheyza. We planned to spend the whole day together and it was really fine with me. To be honest, I felt a bit of hurt since my batchmates didn’t even plan anything for me. I said all my feelings to rheyza and she just took it all in. after mass, we went to

marche

only to find that they were all there waiting for me!! Well most of them anyway. It seems that they planned to surprise me, and they did very much so! I was shocked, glad and grateful all at the same time! I even felt like crying!! I also felt pretty bad for thinking such sad thoughts..but nonetheless I realized how lucky I am for having these precious friends with me. Thank you again!(^_^)

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To add icing to the cake, I was flung with more sweet surprises!! The night of my bday I was happily reading my bday cards when my batch mates arranged a study group session the next day. It was supposed to be only us girls and I agreed to come. Being gullible as I am, I packed all my prelim papers,some maths papers and all my stationery. The next day me and katlyn set out for our study session in namly park which was a long walk! When we finally reached the place, I found all my batchmates waiting for me and singing “happy bday!” I could not really explain here how happy and loved I felt. Thank you everyone for making my birthday a really memorable event in my life!!(^_^)

I LUV U BATCH 5!!!

need i say more?:D

fushigi yuugi rockz!!!:)))

juz listened to the soundtrack haha

Old alert!!

`~~ yups u’ve read it correctly—I’M GETTING OLDER!!!! Around 2 more hours and I’m officially seventeen yrs old!:)))

well can’t say im truly happy to be older..im quite indifferent about it. I mean, in normal everyday lyf it doesn’t really matter if you’re sixteen or eighteen..i mean I look the same so what’s the big deal??i guess I’ll truly experience life-altering effects by the time I reach my (shudder) twenties!!! Nwei that won’t happen til much later haha so im still quite safe.=)

hmm what is it abt being old nwei?specifically abt being seventeen??why is it different from being 16?

When I was little (yes little around 9) I used to read stories about Cinderella and aurora..all those Disney princesses n I noticed most of them found their prince charming at 17 or 18!!it seemed back then that these ages are really old…n very grown-up. I remember thinking when I was nine that by the time im at this age I wud be like one of the Disney princesses- all grown up with wisdom at my helm n maybe a prince to boot =)haha!!!

Sadly im turning seventeen in a few hours n well…..the thought of a princess to suit my image is quite far off…like really far off!!!! My dreams are shattered!!all those things I’ve believed in when I was young was all hoax!!i’ve been living a lie!!!(bangs head)

Ok now I know..being older means we’re getting lamer =) I hope no one reads this entry haha I plead for temporary insanity n wei its my bday nwei so just this once k?

I dun even know what I’ll be doing tomorrow!!actually I shudn’t know coz ppol are supposed to surprise you on your bday ryt?haha well I dun rily care there’s still nxt yr go surprise me then =) I’m not prepared to be surprised or anything 2mr…exam thoughts bugging me….AHA!! don’t you get sick sumtyms when ppol always ask you what you want on your bday??i mean duh!i want a lot of stuff but it’s awkward to say these things to

ur

friends (esp if

ur

not rily close) since most of them are really ex!!yeah I want these stuff and I’ll save up for them =)sumday hehe..but back to my argument of course I won’t say these things coz then I’ll be expecting them to buy it right? I might as well write a list then pick out whatever you can afford haha kidding ppol!!=) what I want to say is,,I wud appreciate it more if you wud pick out the gift yourself coz that really shows how well u know me=) better if you put effort into it like homemade cards seriously =)))) if you really want to know what I want…6 points for o’s hahaahahahahaha=)))))

Ok im officially crazy now, sorry for bothering you with this post mortum//juz a bit sentimental abt being older =)

Now that im older I have more responsibilities to face…………isn’t that exciting??=D

Ciao!

fritzie

Fall to pieces

I looked away
then I looked back at you,
You tried to say
the things that you can’t undo,
If I had my way
I’d never get over you,
Today’s the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don’t wanna talk about it
’cause I’m in love with you.

You’re the only one
I’d be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.

Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don’t wanna talk about it
’cause I’m in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything… Everything.

I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don’t wanna talk about it
And i don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don’t wanna talk about it.

And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don’t wanna talk about it.

And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
And I don’t wanna talk about it
’cause I’m in love with you… I’m in love with you, ’cause I’m in love with you.
I’m in love with you… I’m in love with you.